A Long Way From Yes
At the hikes apogee, peace created space for a question to appear
A why, why did I feel an internal pull towards something near
This was not the first time I sensed this was a place I had to go
Previously resisted, the challenge always waited another tomorrow
Intense summer heat pushed aside, accepting, my arms opened wide
I surrendered to the silence, to the invisible faith nurtured inside
Weighty burdens were gently lifted and I too rose from the terrain
Legs kept pace with the pumping of unspoken words in my brain
There was no choice but trust the unknown of what I was to do
as I had heard myself answer a firm yes to Christ’s subtle clue
My boots again found earth’s surface right where it should be
I knew I was forever changed moving towards a hidden destiny
Time has passed, I am still not sure what is behind the shear curtain
but have no doubt of my correct response to the wordless question
I have found not a what, but rather would I be willing to be blessed
Looking back, the answer seems such a long, long way from yes
Immediately after first getting involved with helping a number of non profit organizations I began to feel this strange longing sensation. Although extremely hot I decided to go on a hike as walking always brings on a temporary inner peace. The intense summer heat at the halfway point became unbearable. I realized I too had reached a tipping point. It made me think of Christ in the middle of the desert reflecting and praying to his Father.
It seemed like the clue I needed, I knew my only choice was to use my faith to agree to whatever this longing was. Out of nowhere I heard myself shout yes. The second I did I had this overwhelming sensation that my burdens were lifted both emotionally and physically. I have no choice but admit I have felt very different since that moment. Looking back I have realized that this was perhaps the first time in my life I had truly accepted Christ into my heart.
For further reflection:
Matthew 11:7-11 – Scripture (NRSVCE Bible)
Jesus Praises John the Baptist
7 As they went away, Jesus began to speak to the crowds about John: “What did you go out into the wilderness to look at? A reed shaken by the wind? 8 What then did you go out to see? Someone dressed in soft robes? Look, those who wear soft robes are in royal palaces. 9 What then did you go out to see? A prophet? Yes, I tell you, and more than a prophet. 10 This is the one about whom it is written,
‘See, I am sending my messenger ahead of you,
who will prepare your way before you.’
11 Truly I tell you, among those born of women no one has arisen greater than John the Baptist; yet the least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he.
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Additional Thoughts about my Poetry
I believe my writing fits snugly into the category of grounded mystical Christian theology. I have studied, written, and spiritually and physically applied this practical concept in my life for nearly two decades. I have never seen or participated in what some might call a vision or phenomenon. However, I appreciate that they may be a reality for the person or group, and God has provided them with deep consolation. For me, consolation is the beginning of a two-way relationship with God.
My own experiences are more intellectual in nature because I lean toward engineering and science. The reality for me is that God is always present because we are his tabernacles. We constantly miss His surfacing of lighter than a feather touch because we are a physical people. We talk about opening our hearts to this love, but technically, our intellect gets in the way. I have been trying to prove this virtually every day for well over a decade by documenting what I believe are grounded mystical thoughts in various ways.
The tragedy of 9/11 was a significant transformative moment in my spiritual life because of a first hand experience. I am re-dedicating the thoughts and prayers associated with my Christian Poetry to all those affected.
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Prayer for young families:
Lord, let the young families of our communities get to know your joy, peace, comfort, and love despite the world’s distractions.
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